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THE WRITER Koh Shi Li. Born on 6 Sept 1987. Virgo. Has 2 sisters, whom i'm in a love-hate relationship with. Met the most wonderful guy, who is also damn lucky to have met me, on 18 Nov 2006 and we have been working hard towards a beautiful future tgt since then. HER MAN Puah Yeow Chong  HER UPDATES TAGBOARD HER FRIENDS OTHERS HER MEMORIES August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 January 2012 February 2012 March 2012 April 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 August 2012 September 2012 October 2012 November 2012 December 2012 CREDIT |
Tuesday, June 30, 2009 Day 1 of Teaching After my 1st lesson, i went back to the staff lounge and cried over the phone to darling. It wasn't the nice 1A class i went to, it was more like because i think i did a bad job. I couldn't control the kids, even though i was told that that is probably the best class in the school. Perhaps it was the 1st day of school and they were still excited about the AYG torch relay earlier in the day. Little did i know that the real nightmare will start from my second class onwards. For the rest of the day, i had lessons for music (for the normal tech classes) and english for sec 3NA. I lost control of the classes, they students talked back to me, they were playing music and sleeping in the class, and i had a v rude and problematic student, who cannot stop talking and saying rude and unpleasant things at me. After this huge culture shock, i thought i couldn't continue anymore so i told my in charge that i don't think i am cut out for teaching. Many people tried talking to me and said that it's only the 1st day of school and since they have not seen each other for a while, they had alot of things to share with each other. Moreover, i have to admit that i wasn't prepared for the lessons but it was because i did not have the scheme of work and i seriously just did not know what to prepare. Hence, i decided to give myself and the students another chance and i told myself "Try for 1 week and see how it goes. Perhaps i can get used to it and the students will be less rowdy tomorrow." How naive i was. Day 2 of Teaching This time, i prepared for my lessons, and i thought i was well prepared. 1st lesson of the day was double period for one of my sec 3NA classes. I went in alone, and gave them work to do. Same as yesterday, i couldn't control them, esp the rude and couldn't-stop talking one, whom i shall call RS (rude student). It started like this... I was outside waiting for Teacher X to finish up her lesson and i saw one of the new teachers going to NIE at the back of the class and i smiled at her. She came out of the class while the Teacher X was answering the questions of some students and i talked to the new teacher for a while, she was telling me how rowdy the class was and wished me good luck, and i told her i came to the class yesterday already. Anyway, while i was talking to her, RS came out of the class and said.. RS: You want to teach or not Me: Yes. Y? RS: You want to teach den come in lah! Stand outside of the class and talk and talk for what?!? Teacher X: BECAUSE SHE WAS WAITING FOR ME TO COME OUT OF THE CLASS 1ST! (in caps because she raised her voice at him) So i went into the class and wasted to start my lesson. I gave them work to do and walked around to help those who needs help, wake those who are sleeping, asked those talking to do their work and those who are not in their seats to get back to their seats. Most of the time, i wasn't helping those who needs help because when u ask them of they need help, they either dun bother to reply you or say no, and i was held up by doing the rest i mentioned. RS was the 1st to finish his work and i thought "Wow.. maybe he is not that bad afterall". Then he went around the class talking to people whom have not finished their work. So i told him to get back to his seat, but he refused, and asked those who are not doing their work to start. Then he started making some noise which i ignored and insisted he gets back to his seat. Then he said "毛都还没有长完就要来叫我们" I was furious and terribly upset but i ignored him. Then halfway through the lesson, my in-charge came in and said that she is supposed to be in the class with me but she was given the wrong timetable in the morning so she came in late. The moment she came in, those standing in thee class immediately went back to their seats and the class was quiet, but not for long. After a few minutes, the class returned to its rowdy state and the students were asking her if i will be tecahing for long and RS smelly mouth opened and said "你叫一个二十多岁，毛都还没有长完的人来教我们，我们哪里会学到东西?" My in-charge did not hear him say that but i heard. These two comments helped me made up my mind that i cannot continue anymore and i do not want to come back tomorrow to see them again. Why do i have to be emotionally attacked here? I told peiying and another teacher about this and both told me that he is like that to all teachers so it's not only me and it has nothing to do with me. RS just likes to test new teachers and when he can get teachers to cry, he will have a sense of achievement. They kept saying it's not be but it turns out that it is me! It's me who cannot deal and accept these insults. It's me who cannot turn a blind eye to RS's and the other rude students behaviour towards me. Although i ignored his every comment in class, i took them personally and is terribly hurt and insulted inside, and i almost cried in class. Moreover, this other class i went to shouted to me "Cher, you sound/look like a kid". Seriously, i'm, just not cut out for this job. I'm not suitable physically, mentally and emotionally. So i insisted to my in-charge that i do not want to go back tomorrow, not for another lashing of insults and go through hell again, because i simply cannot take it anymore. I was complaining to the other relief teacher, who is supposed to do relief for one semester, and he told me that he cannot take it too and is considering to quit if things don't improve by the end of this week. His reason was the workload, different from mine, my reason is the students like RS. I love my sec one class though. I'm sorry if i have disappointed anyone. My mum (but after i told her what RS told me, i think she understood), darling, my in-charge and peiying, but i'm not psychologically strong enough for this. |