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THE WRITER Koh Shi Li. Born on 6 Sept 1987. Virgo. Has 2 sisters, whom i'm in a love-hate relationship with. Met the most wonderful guy, who is also damn lucky to have met me, on 18 Nov 2006 and we have been working hard towards a beautiful future tgt since then. HER MAN Puah Yeow Chong  HER UPDATES TAGBOARD HER FRIENDS OTHERS HER MEMORIES August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 January 2012 February 2012 March 2012 April 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 August 2012 September 2012 October 2012 November 2012 December 2012 CREDIT |
Sunday, September 30, 2007 Darling didn't go for work today. So, i met him and his sister at City Hall to alter the length of his watch strap. I bought him the watch which we previously saw together at suntec but i didn't buy because we both were hesitant. I liked the watch very much but was afraid that he wouldn't wear if i bought it and he was doubtful if he'll start wearing a watch because he don't wear one usually as he don't own one. Anyway, i wanted to buy the same watch in a different colour, his is black and mine is white, and he offered to pay it for me. I didn't want him to pay for my watch because i i think that it is pointless if i buy one for him and he buys one for me. But in the end, he forcefully paid for my watch. Haha. Darling says it's the thought that counts, so it doesn't matter if it cancels out if he buys for me as long as our intention was to buy for the other party. *blur* This is the watch that he bought for me. His is in black.  After that we went to NOVO at Suntec to exchange his big sis's shoes. It's the 1st time i step into that shop because it looks like a high end shop which sells expensive shoes. While they were settling the shoes issue, i went around trying on the shoes in that shop. The high heels shoes are very very very good to wear! The shoes there are not like Charles and Keith's heels, which are very hard to walk in even when you're wearing a not high pair of heels. The shoes in Novo, on another hand, are very easy to walk in even when you're wearing a VERY high pair! Impressive. A very nice pair of snake skin (or snake skin look-a-like) shoes, costs $49.90. And there was this pair to fabulous pumps which only costs $19.90!!! Woohoo! But i didn't buy any because i didn't want to spend money since i've already overspent for the last 2 months. *sad* I would really really really like to have those 2 pair of shoes! Oyah! And there was a very nice pair of wedges! Haha. Excited! After that, we walked to bugis to settle darling's hard disk problem. His desktop couldn't detect his hard disk and when he brought back to the shop which he bought from, they couldn't detect any data from his hard disk. The person told him that he can bring that hard disk back on a weekday and ask for a one-for-one exchange from another shop, but they wouldn't help him retrieve his data. If he wants to retrieve his data, he would have to go to another shop which is able to help him retrieve his data. Darling had 'cut' and 'paste' his data into the hard disk so he doesn't have another back up copy. Silly darling. Haha. Poor thing, he now have to do so much to try to get back his data and to get his hard disk fixed. I wanted to help him to bring his hard disk back on a weekday because i'll be having e-learning week next week. But he didn't want to trouble me, so he didn't want me to help him. At around 5 plus, we went to his house for dinner. It was awkward because his family did not know that i was going to go for dinner so there were not enough food. His father had to go to the hawker centre to buy extra packet of chicken rice. I really felt bad. And his family did not allow me to eat any of the fried bee hoon leftover from the afternoon because darling told them that i was having stomach problem. Actually, i was just very bloated from the steamboat dinner i had the night before. Anyway, It just shows that their family dotes me. Hehe. Still, i felt bad. Darling told me today that his father had asked him to marry a teochew girl, i'm a hokkein. And he told him that after me and darling got together. Is it that his father dislike me? Hmm. I can only say that he talks the least to me in his family. Sigh. We'll just have to see how things go. I'm rather affected by this piece of news. And i think i shouldn't go to darling's house to have dinner so often, if not, it seems like i'm always disturbing them. What does the future holds for us? I want to know. Saturday, September 29, 2007 Darling came over to my house for dinner today. My mother cooked promfret steamboat and asked me to ask him to if he wants to join us for dinner. Darling agreed! Hehe. I ate alot alot alot of food! Haha. Very happy that darling made the effort to come down after work today. He said if it's within his means to make me happy, he'll try to do it. Really very touched to hear him say that even though it's not the 1st time he said that to me. Hehe. Really feel that it's a bonus that he came down today and even ate at my house! It's really a rare thing that he eats at my house because we always either eat outside, or eat at his house. Hehe. *happy* If darling doesn't go for work tomorrow, i think we'll be able to meet up again. Hehe. But if he does, i suppose i'll be able to take it, since he had already made extra effort to come down to meet me for dinner and we've met twice this week already. But still, i hope that we'll be able to meet tomorrow before i go for steamboat with MX, Marx, PJ and GY. Friday, September 28, 2007 Darling is back from his Ipoh trip! We went to Botak Jones at Clementi for dinner today. The staff there are quite friendly. Erm, actually i'm not too sure, but at least the one who served us was friendly. We waited quite a while for our food to arrive, or maybe because i was too hungry already so the waiting time felt like forever. I didn't dare to tell darling that i was feeling hungry because i knew that he would ask me if i had lunch, but in the end, he still asked me. So i told him that i ate fries for lunch, but i didn't tell him l ate less than 10 fries. Haha. We shared salmon, which is served with coleslaw and spicy fries. Darling ordered it with more fries and more spice on the fries and he asked for Tabasco sauce. All my favourites! Hehe. The food was not fantastic, but the company was! Haha. So happy to know that he's back in Singapore. After that we went to his house because he wanted to let me try some of the food he brought back from Malaysia. He wanted to do some pull ups on his way home but i said that i want to go to Sheng Siong. So darling didn't do pull ups so that he could bring me to Sheng Siong. Isn't darling good to me? Hehe. I bought some tidbits from there but we couldn't find the 'one tin of Julie's love letters' i wanted. We had quite a few tins during the CNY period but after that period, i couldn't find it anymore in NTUC or Prime. *sad* After that we went to darling's house, which happens to be my frequent hang out recently, to eat mangoes. Then i took a cab home myself because i wanted darling to rest more. Although darling and i don't usually meet up everyday, but when he's gone, i seem to miss him alot. Haha. As in, usually we will meet up on either Friday or the weekends, but when he's not in Singapore, i'll miss him as if i meet him everyday and will have the 'can't wait to meet him when he comes back' feeling. I'm really happy to be back in his arms again. Hehe. Hopefully we can meet up again this week, before my recess week, which is supposed to be meant for me to catch up with my work, ends. Thursday, September 27, 2007 Darling bought durian mooncake from Goodwood Park Hotel for my family! Hehe. The mooncake is delicious! It's real durian meat in wrapped in snowskin. Yum!    I bought Gelare's Ice Cream mooncake from The QP for darling's family. Tried the chocolate and the strawberry ones with his family. Haha. They were quite good. There's a truffle in each of the mooncake in place of the egg yolk.   Darling cutting the mooncake for us. =)  Wednesday, September 26, 2007 Went out with the S305 girls today. Yee Yuan, Cherine, Judy, Esther, Bixia and me were present. Only Xuefang didn't come because she had to give tuition. We went to NYDC at Suntec for dinner. They bought birthday presents for me, Bixia, Esther and CHERINE (she reminded me that she was given a present too). Haha. Although it's very belated, i was glad that i got a present, especially when i'm not expecting one. Esther and i got dresses, Bixia got two pairs or ear studs and cher got a vibrating mushroom pillow. Hehe. Happy because i've been looking around for dresses recently but it's hard to find dresses that are suitable for me because of my height. I really quite like the dress they bought for me. THANKS! I ordered an interesting drink called, Iced Mocha Elephanchinno. Don't know if i've spelt it correctly. It's contained in a miniature jug.  We shared a mud pie together for dessert. The dessert was okay except that there was a very strong milky smell in the ice cream. Saw this interesting dessert. Can bring Snowball next time. Hehe.  After that, we went to Carrefour to get my shampoo and Bixia's present. Because Bixia got ear studs but she didn't pierce her ears. So, Esther and Judy each bought a pair of ear studs and we went to get another present for bx. We got her a set of bra from Carrefour. Haha. Esther keep saying that i'm too thin already, but am i? Maybe it's because i'm always with MX, who is very thin, so i keep thinking that i'm fat? Or it is because they couldn't see the fats under my loose dress? If i'm really skinny, then why does darling keep saying that i'm flabby and says that he doesn't mind if i lose more weight. I mean, if i'm really skinny, darling wouldn't want me to lose more weight right? Anyway, i really don't think that i'm skinny. I think YY is even thinner than me. Haha. And i think that she looks good, so, i'm going to continue to try lose weight. Hopefully i can weigh 40kg by the end of this year and that my breasts can gain more weight. Wahaha! It's been quite sometime since we've met. Very happy to see them today. Hehe. When is the next time we'll meet? Haha. *shrugs shoulders* Tuesday, September 25, 2007 Darling is leaving for Ipoh in less than 2 hours. Went back to school just to do the Accounting project today. I drove to school and mummy drove the car back. Haha. For a short period of time, i was driving at 100km/hr! I guess they were right when they say that newbie drivers are very dangerous. Probably it's because it's the first time we can drive at high speeds without anyone asking us to slow down because we are not allowed to drive at above 50km/hr when we are still PDL drivers. But my mother sis ask me to slow down because i was driving too much over the speed limit. Haha. Still, it was shiok! Jenq drove us to Jurong point and i had mee hoon kuay for lunch! Hehe. I like the mee hoon kuay there because they have sliced carrots mixed in minced meat, which is given in generous amounts! You can get full by just finishing the minced meat. Haha. I love it! Darling is leaving for Ipoh today. *sad* Darling told me that they'll reach Ipoh then they will leave for the site. After that, they'll leave Ipoh at around evening and will reach Singapore at 6am. After that, he'll have to report for work and will have to attend a training. Poor thing. Hope that he can cope with it and not tire himself out too much. I know that meeting him will be sacrificing his sleeping time. I just asked him if he wants to meet me on friday but he says that i should go ahead and join my friends for friday's cycling outing and not meet him. The meeting is not confirmed yet, but he doesn't want to meet me. *sad* If he has training on Saturday and he's giving tuition on Sunday, we will not be able to meet at all this week. Anyway, since that's what he wants, i'll go out with my friends. Hurmph. Unimportant things aside, hope that darling can cope well in Ipoh. No time to sleep other then when he's on the bus. Poor thing. I took more than 2 hours to write this entry. Haha. Mainly because i'm watching tv and writing and i went to shit twice just now and i called darling to talk to him. He's leaving soon. I'll miss him alot! Especially when i know that we might not be able to meet up this week. Other than hoping that he'll have a safe trip, i have nothing else to ask for. Hope that he can take care of himself well over there. I'll miss him alot! Happy Mid-Autumn Festival Darling. Love ya. Sunday, September 23, 2007 Darling and i went for the Singapore Soka Association concert today. I think the programme was overall quite nice, other then we felt abit left out when they were chanting. It's amazing how come of them can memorise the whole chant which lasted about 15 minutes. We left early to go to orchard. We took a cab down and when we just reached, my mother called to tell me that my father wants to bring us out for dinner tonight so i have to go home for dinner. I was really pissed because i've told her many days in advance that i'll not be going home for dinner on Sunday because i'll be going out and for this last minute notice, i have to go home when i've JUST reached orchard. Really really very unhappy. So darling had to put up with me when i'm throwing my tantrums. Poor him. He had to put up with me when he woke up earlier than me to give tuition, so he was very tired, and he would rather have some private time with me. Anyway, he had to pacify me and convince me that i have to go home for dinner because my parents wanted a family dinner, etc. Dinner was okay. As usual, my father ordered alot of food and this time, we couldn't finish the food. I can sense that darling felt quite left out during dinner. Nobody really talked to him and he didn't talk to anyone. Maybe he's just tired and he's afraid that his attempt to strike a conversation will backfire. I hope that my family members can try to talk to him understand him more. I'm sure they'll like him. Seeing that we wasted food, darling was quite appalled. After he left, he gave me a message which said: "Dear, it's real good to be brought up in a well-to-do family. The kind of dinner fare you had for weekends is something we'd not had for years... Ordering those food and not finishing them up is something we cannot afford. Haha. Maybe you can learn to appreciate what you all have, not to ask for more. Maybe your dad dotes too much on you all... Sorry for saying this. You can choose to listen or just simply ignore it. I'll message you when i reach home. Hope your family like the mooncakes." How can i simply ignore a message sent to me by him? I admit that i've displayed some acts of a spoilt child recently especially when i always request to travel by cab or asks my mother for the car. So, i told him that maybe this is why he think of me like this. And he reply was: "It's not just that. It's the kind of behaviour you all displayed. Do you know how many poor people there are out there? Probably not enough food? Never have a toy to play? Let along something like PSP? Maybe you're too blessed to consider the plight of others. I'm unsure how far you are from being classified as 'spoilt', and i don't know if i can maintain behaviour and standard of living in the future." Yes, maybe i do come from a family that is slightly better off. But me being too blessed to consider the plight of others? How many times have i stopped to buy a packet of tissue from old ladies? To donate money to the needy? I thought that he would have known me better. Maybe i do take private transportation for granted, but it's because i live in such an environment, which allows me to do so. It's doesn't mean that if i were not to have private transportation, i won't be able to get around. And how many times did i tell him that when i enter the workforce, i can no longer live off my parents like i am now. And does it matter if he cannot provide me with the lifestyle i'm having now? NO! Because by then, i won't be able to provide myself with such a lifestyle too. Why is it that no matter how many times i've assured him that i won't be expecting an equal lifestyle if we ever really marry one day, he still don't get it. I'm tired of having to do it over and over again and reading the messages that he sent me, i felt hurt and really really sad. After being together for 10 months, i thought that he would have known me well enough to not make those accusations. *sad* If he forever thinks so lowly of himself, comparing our family backgrounds, we'll not be able to last long. Just hope that he can understand one day that i'm not the materialistic person whom he thinks that i am. Saturday, September 22, 2007 Met up with Keong today. Last night, he came to talk to me online saying that he's chatting with me because he's going to OCS and will not be able to come out only until after 3 weeks. So i asked him if he wants to meet up today so that i can see his new hairstyle and to see if he has grown fatter. Haha. His new '4321' hairstyle was okay. It wasn't bad looking and he didn't grow any fatter at all. Still as thin as ever. We walked around in East Point shopping centre, which didn't change much although it went through some renovation. There was no crowd although it's a Saturday. Since there was not much to see, we went to NTUC as he wanted to stock up before he goes into camp so that he can have enough food inside. Haha. He bought 4 long cans of potato chips and a few bags of sweets, and he said that he thinks he can finish them within one week! Haha. He's even more power than me. We saw Shu Xiang in NTUC and she thought that we were together because i told her that i came down to meet him. Haha. Then Keong told her that I'm already attached. They were chatting away and I'm quite happy that i was left out because i don't have much to say since I've never met her ever since she graduated from Dunman. Shu Xiang asked why keong needs to buy so much before going into camp. His reply was really funny. He said he's going in for 3 weeks and he wants to set up a mini mama shop inside. Haha. He'll be selling above market price and make a profit. Haha. He's funny as usual. Surprisingly, after not meeting for a few months, we still had quite alot to talk about. I told him since he has nothing to do at home, he might as well walk me home. Haha. So, after he finished shopping for his snacks and bought some food, we went to his house to put down everything and he walked me home. Haha. Still the gentlemen he used to be. Although he kept complaining that he weather is hot and he wants to walk in the shade, i still think that he's nice because he didn't have to walk home with me. After i reached home, i told my mother that i went to meet him and her 1st question was, 'Does he have a girlfriend?'. Haha. Too bad he doesn't have. Hope he can find a good girlfriend soon. Although he has a very foul mouth, likes to use vulgarities, is childish an his only good points are that he's a gentleman and is a funny guy, i believe that he can be a very nice boyfriend. Haha. Had a nice meeting with him. =) The tax quiz was not as bad as i thought it would be. I'm not saying that i can do the paper but because the test was short, it was less painful. Imagine going through a LONG paper and you couldn't do most of the questions. Went to Orchard with MX today to exchange a top that i bought last week. Very nice of MX to wait for me and go down with me as she could have gone home with her brother earlier because she didn't have lesson and she went down just to accompany me. Hehe. Thank you MX. MX's bag spoilt. The bag strap broke and the funny thing is, both straps snapped. Haha. I remember the last time we went out together, her bag strap snapped too. Is it because of me? Haha. Anyway, i tried to use my phone pouch's strap to fix it for her and i succeeded! But then, i don't think she liked her bag after i fixed it because it had a black strap holding on to the 2 broken straps. It's hard to describe here. Anyway, Darling wad supposed to meet his friend for dinner today and we were not supposed to meet. But i thought that darling had always made effort to come and meet me even when i have to study for test in school. Although i don't know whether he would rather spend more time with his friend to go home with his friend not having to send me home or to meet up with me, i asked him if he would like me to go find him and he said he would, so i went down. Sometimes, i really don't know if asking to meet him when he's meeting his friends is good or not. I don't know if i'll be disturbing him and his friends or not and i don't know if he finds having to send me home after that a tiring chore. Half of me wish that i could go home alone so that he can reach home earlier and get more rest, but the other half of me wants him to send me home so that we can spend more time together. Although he says that he would like me to go down, i don't know if it's because he knows that i want to meet him or because he really wants me to go down. Maybe i think too much. We went to find his another friend, Geraldine, who has a shop in bugis village. She's really a very pretty, cheerful and bubbly girl. Haha. She really left an impression on me, a good one. After we've met for a very long time and in fact, we were already preparing to go home already, he suddenly recalled that he have to leave Singapore next Tuesday and will be coming back only on Thursday. *sad* Darling won't be able to spend MAF in Singapore. Sigh. I was thinking that since I'll be having recess week, we can spend more time together, but seems like it's not possible anymore. He just got the news today and the tickets are already bought. Initially, i was rather doubtful of what he said. I mean, how can the boss ask him to go overseas like so last minute and it's even after the tickets are bought? I suspected that he is going overseas with another girl When i told him that, he said that he'll take a group photo with his bosses. Then i said 'I've never seem your bosses before. Even if u ask 2 tourists to take photo with you and tell me that they are your bosses, there's nothing i can do to verify'. Wahaha. I really think too much! I mean, If only i could trust him more, understand that it's not his fault for going overseas during my recess week, and that he would really want to spend MAF with his family too. Silly me. Nonetheless, darling patiently pacified me until i started to smile again. Hehe. Love you. Keong got into OCS, just as he wanted. Haha. Happy for him. Hope that he can cope well inside. another good news is, his camp will be near my school so next time when he books out, we can meet up at jurong point for dinner or anything. Hehe. He's telling me something about a '4321 hairstyle' which i don't understand at all. Haha. While darling is at Ipoh, I'll be missing him very much, but i know that he'll be missing me too and that he would rather spend time with his family and me. Thinking of this makes me feel alot better. *smiles* Friday, September 21, 2007 10 more hours to my tax quiz. But I'm not in the mood to study at all. It's always like that, as it gets nearer to the test time, the motivation to study will decrease at an increasing rate. Haha. Well, according to Emmeline, she had not been studying for the past few days, and i started studying like last week. But for her, catching up is easy. I'll probably need to study 2 months before the test and she can finish studying in 2 days. Haha. But life's never fair, so I'll just have to accept the fact that she's much more smarter than me. As for Yiling, she might be held up by things that are more important but I'm sure she's consistent with her studies. According to my speculation, tomorrow's test will be a breeze for them, while I'll probably have a tough time doing the paper. I'm actually rather bothered by one very bothering thing, and that is whether i should disclose the existence of this blog to darling. Although I've never deliberately hid this blog from anyone (it's just that nobody had asked before), i don't really feel good hiding anything from him. Well, he might have asked me if i had a blog before but it was before i had created this and at that point of time, i really didn't have a blog. If he had found out this blog by himself, which is highly impossible because he seldom goes online, or his friends had told him that they had found a blog with his collage, will he think that I'm not honest to him? Haha. Or that i did not practise the transparency policy? Haha. I shall try and put myself in his shoes. (1) If i had found out that he had a blog and he had not told me about it, how would i feel? Ans: MAD! (2) Will i think that he had hid the blog from me? Ans: YES (3) Will i feel sad? Ans: YES (4) Will any explanation provided by him be good enough for him to not tell me about his blog? Ans: NO (5) Will i think that something fishy's going on? Ans: DEFINITELY!! Hmm... The answer seems to be quite obvious. I should tell him about my blog. But there are also cons about telling him about my blog. Like, i will not be able to write whatever i want to since i know that he'll be reading. Actually, i won't be able to write what i want to as long as i know that someone i know i reading my blog. Reason being, i care too much about what others think of me. Will they think that my blog entries are stupid? Will they think that my grammar is lousy? Will they laugh at my English? (I don't have to worry about this if it's darling reading since his English is not too good as well. Hee.) And my list of concerns goes on. And if i know that my boyfriend is reading my blog, will he be shock to know that I'm actually such a demanding person? Actually, he already knows that, but he might think that I'm a more demanding person than the demanding girlfriend he knew. Haha. Will i still be able to write about my male friends? Sigh. Conclusion, I'll tell him when there's a right chance to tell him. And i have a strong feeling that the right chance to tell him will be the next time we meet up. Haha. Yes, i think it's a good solution. I won't feel good if he starts a blog and doesn't tell me about it too. Will be going down to town with MX tomorrow to exchange a top i bought previously. Hope that we can convince Jenq to drive us down so that we don't have to carry our heavy baggage down to town and that we get to enjoy the comfort of being driven around in a car without having to squeeze with other people. PLEASE GUANG JENQ. PLEASE DRIVE US TO ORCHARD. Shall act pity more so that he'll give in. Haha. Back to tax notes. Tax is so taxing. Thursday, September 20, 2007  Wednesday, September 19, 2007 Happy 10th month darling! Darling surprised me by coming to school to find me just now. Luckily i slept late last night to write the monthly letter i always wrote for him every month. Hehe. He bought a slice of cake from Starbucks, a bag of my favourite calbee hot and spicy potato chips, a box of Lexus peanut butter crackers, 3 pcs of my favourite subway M&M chocolate cookies (1 for me, 1 for mx and 1 for marcus) and a cup of my all time favourite 7-11 mocha. And it's s coincidence that i had wanted to buy a cup of mocha from the 7-11 in school but i found out that the cup size have shrunk but the price still remains the same so i decided not to buy before i went to study at library 2 with jenq. I think my darling and i have telepathy. Haha. Really happy that darling came to school to find me because this was what i was hoping for the whole day, that he would surprise me by coming to school. Darling never disappoints me. Although i would have wished that he was carrying the seal soft toy that i had wanted sometime ago and didn't buy because it was too expensive, i know that i should be contented with what he had already done for me. He had came after work to find me despite being tired from a whole day of work. I'm very touched. For the past 10 months, i could say that we have gone through quite alot. Maybe because it's my 1st relationship that's why he is taking extra efforts to meet up to my expectations. Maybe because I'm alot younger than him that's why he's always giving in to me, he treats me very very very well, protects me in every way, dote on me alot and will always want to see his little girl happy. Hehe. Or maybe, I'm just plain lucky to have found such a nice guy to be my 1st, and hopefully also the last, boyfriend. Maybe I'm spoilt by him, but i could also confidently say that, I've learnt alot from him. Shortly after 6 or 7 months into our relationship, we were faced with a huge change in life. He had to enter the workforce while I'm still studying in school. It's not like going to the army, where there are only, or mainly, guys. He's bound to meet girls who are much prettier and nicer than me and whom he can spend more time with. When all the insecurities starts to set in, he was there for me. He chose not to assure me that he'll never change his feelings for me, instead, he said that at least for now, he would still love me. Those were not able to pacify me, but he wouldn't promise me that he would love me forever because he's afraid that he won't be able to keep to his promise. So, instead of forcing him to promise me, i had to learn that things are changing everyday. When we meet new people, we are not able to say for sure that we won't fall in love with them one day. Moreover, this kind of feelings, most of the time, cannot be controlled by ourselves. We may end up meeting people whom we feel good with and maybe have a little feelings for, but as long as we keep in mind that there's a person who loves me more than anyone else, and whom i had went through alot with, we would still want to stay with that person. Moreover, i can say that both of us had went through alot for each other and we had also learnt to love each other's families. Darling had always sacrifice his resting time to spend more time with him and I've always been trying hard to learn that he must have time for himself and that he does not have to spend all the time when he's not working with me. We had already tried to accustom to each other's way of life. Although there are people whom I'm getting more close to in my life recently, and the same goes for him, I'll be trying very hard to make sure that i won't have a change of heart. I think nobody in this world would be able to try so hard to give in to me and to give me as much as my darling had done for me. I want to live under his protective wings forever and to be loved by him. He's the one whom i want to start a family and to work hard together with. Hopefully, we can last that long. Happy 10th month darling. I love you. Friday, September 14, 2007 I have 830am class tml. Yes, i know i shouldn't be blogging but i need to complain. I've been very busy. Very, very busy. I have to keep up with my tutorials. I'm lagging behind on my lecture readings. I have to do my part for the accounting project. I have to study for my major tax quiz next Friday. I have to eat, sleep and shit. I have so many things to do! Yet, i have so little time. I only finished one set of tax notes today and i have spent about an hour and a half of doing nothing in the FAL because apparently, not everyone came prepared for the project discussion. I spent more than 1 hour each for lunch and dinner. What can i do man? I cannot just leave my friends behind and say that i have to go back and study when the others are still eating right? I watched 1 and a 1/2 hrs or tv. I know this is not required but hey, i need to rest you know? I had lessons from 830 to 1030, after that i went to study in the reading room and then i went for my Japanese class from 330 to 5. When i reached room, i was studying again until dinner time. 1 full day of studying! I went for a jog but i ate too much after dinner (snacks) and so, when i jogged, i felt like vomiting. Nothing came out. So, i continued to jog until my stitch was unbearable for me to continue. I cut through NIE and walked back to hall with marcus. *sad* I ate so much and didn't get much exercise in the end. This weekend, i aim to accomplish 2 more sets of tax notes, so by then I'll be at seminar 7 and I'll have until seminar 11 to catch up, and I'll finish my company law tutorial. Yes, sounds little, but it's alot for someone almost din study for the past 1 yr. Shag. Monday, September 10, 2007 Friday Darling came to school to fetch me home. I wanted to shop so we went to Suntec City for dinner and to shop for my bra. I treated darling to Carl's Jr, although we shared a meal together. After buying my bras, we went to fetch his sisters from Tiong Bahru Shopping Centre and we had supper together. His third sis bought a key chain for me as my birthday present! =) After having our prata supper, we drove his sisters home and we went to East Coast Park for a walk. Haha. Although the walk was a short one, it's the 1st time we did this together so i did enjoy it. Then, we went home and he slept over. Saturday It was our hall Dinner and Dance! I woke up in the afternoon and it was too late to book an appointment for makeover at the Raffles City Body Shop. So, i hurried to tampines mall to find if there are any makeover services available at Isetan. After asking around, i finally found one that has available slots for that day! Estee Lauder. It's a buy $50 and get a makeover kind of thing. So i made an appointment and went home to prepare for the night. After packing my bag and watching some Tv, it was time to go for the makeover. I was very excited because it's my 1st time getting one. The person was quite experienced. I told her that i was going to wear my glasses and she was shocked. She said i have big eyes so i shouldn't waste it, and if i wear my specs, she won't be able to help me put on mascara. But then, i dun have contacts so it's just too bad. Haha. She helped me trim my brows and applied alot of concealer, which i definitely need. The trimming eye brow part was painful, but bearable. The outcome was good i suppose, because someone who was looking for products at the counter commented that the make up was nice. *happy* After that, i had to choose the products i wasted to buy. I bought the lip gloss she used on me and the eye brow pencil. Only 2 products and it costs me $73! It's really a high end brand. I wanted to buy the concealer because when i say the final product, i had no dark eye circles! I have very serious dark eye circle problems but she had managed to make them vanish! *applause* As for the real dinner, the food was ok and i was enjoying it until i was called onto stage to play game. I got really angry when the emcee asked me to dance to some Indian MTV. VERY ANGRY. But after i got back to my seat, i felt better already. After dinner, we went around to take photos with everyone. Hee. I was supposed to stay over in the hotel that night with HAVOC people. In the end, i went home because darling said he'll come to fetch me home and also to return the car. Darling took from 12plus am to 2am to find me but he still could not find that place. My darling cannot read the map. He got frustrated and felt that he didn't have the face to see me so he asked me to go home myself and he'll find his way home. How can i leave my boyfriend stranded in a place in this island and go home at ease? So, i asked him to stay there and wait for me. I got us home safely. When he'd sent me home, he said that he wanted to go home. He said that he didn't know how to face me. I was really sad, very very sad. If he cannot face me when he is faced with troubles or when he had failed, how can we last long? I would want to go through all the good times and bad times together. Anyway, he stayed over in the end and left early next morning for tuition. Sunday I woke up late again. Daddy left a message in my handphone to ask me to call him when i wake up. So i did. I talked to everyone there and i made my grandmother cry. *sad* Because i am very concerned about how i look, how much i weigh, i often skip meals. Over the phone, she asked me to eat and not to skip meals because it hurts her to see me skip meals, and she cried. I didn't know that she still loves me so much. I love her too. I slacked the whole day away and darling said he'll come over and fetch me to school because i said i feel very lazy to have to go back to hall myself. Yes, i know i have a very nice boyfriend. Hehe. I'm a lucky girl! He stayed over in hall with me. Darling is going to the airport to fetch my parents later. And he's going to take a bus home from the airport. How come I've met such a nice guy? Haha. I must really treat him better. Friday, September 7, 2007 Celebrated my birthday at VivoCity with darling yesterday. We were supposed to have dinner at a Japanese Restaurant because i told him that i want to eat Jap food and he had a 1-for-1 set dinner voucher. The set dinner is $88++! He came to hall after work to shower and pick me up. I brought the street directory up to find the way to Vivo after class yesterday but when we left, i forgot to bring it down. As we were both lazy to go up to take the book, we decided to find our way there ourselves. Guang Jenq told me earlier that we just have to exit from Keppel Road, make a U turn and keep left until we see the bridge to Sentosa. The 1st part of the journey went well, because we took the AYE and exited from Keppel road. Then, we had a hard time finding which is the place to U turn. As i was panicking, darling made an illegal U turn. After making the U turn, he said that it seems that we had turned back too early, we should have gone further down before turning back, but he said that he wasn't very sure so we just try our luck and make another U turn, if necessary, later. Then, i saw Cantonment Rd and i told Darling that I'm quite sure we're on the right track cos i know that we'll have to pass by Cantonment Rd after making the U turn. Soon, VivoCity came into sight. Clever me. Hehe. While we were walking in, i told darling that we should not go to the Jap Restaurant because it's too expensive. I expected the $88++ to amount to $100+ and I'll not be able to finish my share so it'll become a waste of money. But Darling wanted to treat me to something nice and he feels as though it's 'kui1 dai4 wo3'. (That's why i call him darling.) Still, i don't want him to so much money on a dinner so i told him that we shall go to basement and eat whatever we feel like having there. Darling agreed (another reason why i love him so much). We end up dining at Asian Kitchen. We ordered the Moonlight Horfun but what we got was more like char kuay tiao. Darling ate and at the same time, complained why his char kuay tiao dun have 'hum'. Haha! So funny. We also ordered dumplings, some red bean dessert and a read bean milk tea, and our bill amounted to only $26+. WAHAHA! We saved a lot of money and i had a very full dinner too. *happy* After that, we went to a shop that sells children's clothes and toys. I think the shop name is Mother's Garden. There's this seal soft toy that i thought was very cute! It's really very cute and nice to touch too! The seal also have clothes so that he can pretend to be a rabbit, turtle, stingray, penguin and dolphin. The stingray one was really very cute! Haha. But the soft toy costs $40+! Nowadays kids are so lucky, i think when i was young, i played with soft toys that only costs $4+. We left the shop and went to buy the mocha mudslide from coffee bean. Hmm, it's not fabulously delicious as i thought it would be. Disappointed. After we went to Bakerzin and darling bought a small birthday cake for me. Hehe. I think the cake's name is Scarlet. It has strawberries on top and lots of cream. As I'm not a very creamy person, i didn't really enjoyed the cake. But still, it's from darling! Hehe. After that, we went to Forever 21 and while we were walking there, darling said that he wanna open a shop named Forever 25. Cold. But cute. Hehe. I only managed to try a tube dress which was too big for me and we had to leave because they are closing already. Feeling sad that i didn't manage to buy anything, i wanted to go back and buy the stingray seal. We saw the door of the shop was still opened so we quickly went to the shop. As we were examining the stingray, the sales girl told us that they've closed the cash register already so we cannot purchase anymore. *sad* It was only 10pm and all the shops in Vivo had closed already. Darling asked me whether i want to watch a movie or he can drive into sentosa and we can walk along the beach. Sounds very romantic right? But i said no, cos i didn't want to shower the 3rd time today. STUPID RIGHT? I deeply regret my decision last night. Darling wad trying to be romantic but stupid me had to go and say no! STUPID STUPID STUPID! I really want to walk along the beach with him right now. Haha. But i was having a headache last night and i was very tired. Hai. In the end, we went to changi airport. We walked there for a while. Darling bought chocolates for me from Cocoa Tree and we visited the view gallery. At around 1230, we made our way back to hall. When we reached hall, darling parked the car at the hall 4 car park. We sat in the car for a while and darling asked me if there's anywhere i want to go. He asked me if i want to go to the president's lodge and i said no again. STUPID ME! Why do i have to be so stupid when he's trying to be romantic? Anyway, I told him that i want to drive around in the S4 carpark. HE AGREED! So he drove us there and we switched seats. Haha. It's my 1st time driving ever since after i passed my driving test! After driving a few rounds in the carpark, he asked me if i want to drive around outside. So i went! Yay! So fun! I drove one round around the school! *happy* Amongst the happy things, there was some unhappy moments. I asked darling if he wanted to come and stay over on Friday night and he said that he told his family that he'll be back home already. I was disappointed to hear that and i showed it on my face! Yes. I know. It's so like me to do that. So while we were on our way to the airport, darling talked to me and when i smiled. He said 'you've finally smiled'. Then in the airport, he said that when I'm happy, he'll be very happy even though he's only hugging me. I think the whole world can tell how come i love him so much by now. How can i not fall in love with such a nice guy? Sometimes i really hate myself for being so selfish. I always want him to spend more time with me disregarding his interest. I want to learn to be less greedy, less demanding, less selfish and more understanding. Easy to say, hard to do. For him, i really want to try to change for the better. Hope that he'll give me more time to change before he changes his mind about being with me. Darling, i really love you alot! Thanks for everything. Thursday, September 6, 2007 Yay! From today onwards, I'm no longer a teenager. Not yet an adult, no longer a teenager, so, what exactly do you call this stage? Haha. It doesn't matter to me. I went home yesterday to get some clothes for today's date. I waited at home for darling to come and fetch me. We took my mother's car and drove back to hall. 1st time being driven by darling is a new experience. He's very stable when he drives on straight road but has a little problem when it comes to turns. He doesn't really take notice of the road conditions (i had to ask him to look out for the curb once) and he tends to drive very near left of the lane, which is ok if you are driving on the rightest most or centre lanes but definitely a no-no when you're driving on the leftest most lane. Still, we made it to school safe and sound. After he parked, we realise that even though he had turned off the engine, the car still made a sound when we took out the key. I tried to call GJ for help but he didn't pick up his phone. So we spent about 10 mins trying to figure out how to 'shut down' the car properly. In the end, he did a smart move of switching off the headlights, which he forgot to switch off, and the car was 'shut down'. When we reached my room, darling asked me to take a look at the brochures he brought for me to choose a place to eat today, while he goes and brush his teeth. Then he suddenly came back and asked me if i have his pants in hall (he was wearing boxers) and i said he wore it the last time and i haven done the laundry. So he asked me to accompany him to the toilet to brush his teeth. At that time, i was suspecting something already but i wasn't very sure how they are going to do it. Anyway, we were supposed to walk to the toilet downstairs but he suddenly stopped outside the toilet at the our level, which is the girls toilet. So i asked him if he wants to go to the girls toilet to brush his teeth but he wasn't paying attention to me, he was looking at MX's room door. Nothing happened. So he went to knock on the door and when the door opened, about 15 people shouted 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!' and they started to sing the birthday song for me, Bing and another guy friend. Haha. I know there is going to be something but i thought it would be something small, like only me, MX, Bing, EnEn and PJ. I was really surprised to see so many people squeezed into a small room and they hid their slippers all inside the room except Bing had one slipper which she forgot to bring in and i saw it before they opened the door. Yay! Let me see who were there. Mei Xin Li Bing Pei Jun Zhu En Guang Jenq Alfred Yue Ze Qing Yuan Guo Yuan Marcus Choon Boon Yi Hao (Who came later) Okay, so there were only 12 people. Haha. We had a Cookies and Cream cake, which i highly suspect is cheese cake because some parts of it tasted weird to me. Then, they handed me my birthday present. A butterfly top  and a nice bag, which was chosen by pei jun  I like the bag alot. It's the kind of bag that i want but will not buy. Strange? I think i can only say that women are like that. Haha. Darling and i are going to have dinner together later. Where and what will we be having? I don't know, but i know that we'll be driving there! Hehe. Just hope that we won't spend too much money on dinner later. Wednesday, September 5, 2007 Ratatouille was good! It has a happy ending. An ending that was unexpected in my opinion, because i always don't expect happy endings. It's also a touching movie, a movie that teach about friendship, that we should not use our friends to our own advantage and that we should not be ashamed of our close ones even though they might be different. A hurtful thing happened today. Hurtful words from an enemy will never be as hurtful as when your good friend, at least i thought of her as my good friend, says it. Especially when you know that that is how she treats people she dislike. What can be worse than this? *sad* I only asked her why didn't she ask me along to bathe once. Then a friend asked her why didn't she ask me to bathe again. And she said to me, 'Crazy arh? I have to ask you to bathe every time i bathe meh? Give me a life.' Every word was like stone thrown onto my head, hurting me, and making me come to my senses. I really don't know what i did to deserve that kind of treatment and those words from her. 'Crazy', spoken in that tone, is a word she'll use only on people she don't like. Was she just having PMS? Did she mean what she said? I shan't touch her life anymore. She might be my only close friend i have here, but i rather have none. But then, I'm already thinking will she ask me for dinner tomorrow? Will she approach me tomorrow and pretend that today had never happened and that she really didn't mean to say what she said? Deep inside, i really hope that she did not mean a single hurtful word said just now. I hope that it's really just her PMS. What am i going to do? Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. *hurt* =( Monday, September 3, 2007 Back in hall after enjoying a weekend of slacking at home. Friday I met darling after work on Friday and treated him to dinner at Billy Bombers to celebrate for passing my driving test and to thank him for helping me pray. He had lamb shank and i had ribs. After that, we walked around in jurong pt and he sent me home. Saturday Met van and rt for kbox on Saturday. It's quite long since i last met them. Alot of things have changed but i still believe, that the both of them are my best friends since secondary school days. We still share things together, and we're still there for each other most of the time. I dun feel bored when i listen to their problems and will still be interested about their lives. But i have to admit that, when we were all single, we were the closest. When rt was attached, me and van got closer to each other. When van got attached, the 3 of us became distant. Now, i want to be there for rt as much as possible. To help her mend a broken heart and to think rationally. Anyway, after Kbox, darling, who was on his way to comex, call and said that he wanted to pass me smth. Rt was having her haircut so me and van when to meet him. He passed me honey water that he had brought from home! So touched. Haha. Because i was having cough for the past 1 week and he had been treating me like a princess. Haha. I secretly half-heartedly don't really want to recover. Hehe. After that, darling went to Comex and i continued to shop with Van for a dress which i would need for DnD on Saturday. Darling came back after buying his camera and i brought him to see a dress that i was considering to buy. In the end, i bought a pink dress, which was not the one i eyed for. I wanted it in black but they said that they do not have my size, so i bought the pink one. Hehe. Ruiting left soon after that and darling and i went for dinner and Cafe Cartel @ Marina Square. We ate until we were VERY full, TOO full. A funny thing happened in the restaurant: I was trying to cut my pork chop but the knife wad not sharp enough so i had a tough time trying to cut it. As i was quite hungry at that time, i wanted to eat my food fast, so i accidentally cause a huge chunk of meat to fly off my plate and drop on the floor, right in the middle of the narrow strip of road that was left for customers and waiters to walk. Then a bizarre thing happened! The huge chunk of pork meat and bones became invisible, apparently only to the waiters. They walked pass the chunk of meat on the floor, trying to avoid stepping on it, and pretend that they can't see it. Boyfriend then asked one of the waitresses to help pick up the chunk of meat and apologised on my behalf for dropping it. She nodded her head, walked away and never returned to pick up the meat or to walk that narrow strip of walkway again. @#%%#@#$%$%& This is the kind of service you'll get if you patronise the shop. (For shop name and details: 2 paragraphs up, 2nd last sentence) After dinner, we went to Raffles City to shop for bras. Found out something sad which i shall not mention. Sunday Went to visit the doctor in the morning. Slacked at home for the rest of the day and ate alot! =( Treated my family to dinner to thank my father for paying so much money for my driving lessons and to thank them to help me pray also. I really believe that praying helps cos i got a kinder tester this time. (I passed on my 3rd time) Daddy said i can have the car on my birthday cos they'll be leaving for Thailand on Thursday (my birthday). YAY! Darling is going to drive on that day. Forgot to bring my medicine back hall. Meeting boyfriend tml for movie! Ratatouille! |
