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THE WRITER Koh Shi Li. Born on 6 Sept 1987. Virgo. Has 2 sisters, whom i'm in a love-hate relationship with. Met the most wonderful guy, who is also damn lucky to have met me, on 18 Nov 2006 and we have been working hard towards a beautiful future tgt since then. HER MAN Puah Yeow Chong  HER UPDATES TAGBOARD HER FRIENDS OTHERS HER MEMORIES August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 January 2012 February 2012 March 2012 April 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 August 2012 September 2012 October 2012 November 2012 December 2012 CREDIT |
Monday, April 7, 2008 Went home early last week in hope to find some comfort from my family and to escape from the immense workload i have for a while. But all i found was trouble, quarrels and more problems to add on to my stress level. Although i know that the past few months have been tough for everyone at home, but i seriously think that the amount of stress i have been experiencing is double, or even triple of theirs. My sister has graduated and have been at home since school ended. She has no stress from work of studies. My mother works half day and she is able to rest from after 2pm except when she has to cook dinner. My youngest sister is school but hey, she's in secondary 2, not university year 2. And from the amount of time i see her spending on her beauty sleep (she slept from 5pm to 10am the next morning), i don't think she has any major stress issues. What about me? I went home and i studied and studied and did my project until like 3am before i go to sleep and i wake up before 10am. Not that i was in the right when we quarreled, but can't you just give in to me? Especially when i was having PMS and i already have so much things on my mind to worry and be stressed about? Sigh. I know i'm being unreasonable, asking for them to give in to me even when i was also in the wrong. But... yeah. You don't know what i'm going through, do you? Darling got his bonus so he brought me and his family out for international buffet lunch on saturday. When something goes wrong, i can always depend on darling to be there for me, which is lucky for me. I think if without him, i could have done stupid things already, that is, if i had the guts to do it. Anyway, back to the lunch. Overall, it was a pleasant afternoon spent with darling and his family. Except for the part that darling told me at 1030am that we are meeting 1130am at Clark Quay and when he told me, i just finished bathing and i needed some more time to prepare, so i had to rush and i ended up late. And the fact that i hate to be pressed for time made my mood worse, given that unhappy episodes occurred on thursday and friday. We had extremely small talks over lunch, most of the time we were eating. Haha. After stuffing ourselves with lots of food, we went to Chinatown to walk for a while. Darling's father wanted to buy a shirt which he saw sometime back and we spent quite a long time trying to find it. After buying the shirt, darling and i left to buy more formal clothes, because i only have 1 formal top and i need formal wear for 2 consecutive days this week and some of my classmates are in both of the classes so i couldn't wear the same top for both days. We went to PS to buy the top and we took quite some time. By the time we reached home for dinner, it was already 7 plus. Anyway, after that, me and darling went to my room and i told him about the things that happened in the past few days. I didn't want to affect darling's mood on friday, because he was going to Balaclava with his friends, so i told him i'm feeling ok when in fact, i'm not at all. So i cried hard in darling's arms and there's nothing much he could do other than listening to me talk and hugging me real tight. Like i've said earlier, if not for him, and my grandmother, i would have already done something stupid, like banging my fist or head on the wall (i really had the urge to do that) so that i can see if my parents cares for me or not. Guess anyone who is reading will think if there's a need to do this, but what if your mother pushed you on the floor and hit you and you're already coming to 21 and she hasn't done that for at least 10 years? Will you still feel loved by her? And what if your father goes to sleep when though he knows that you're upset over something he did? Anyway, darling managed to make me feel a lot better. He even cancelled his sunday tuition so that he can stay over with me. He accompanied me while i rushed finish my project on saturday night. Though what he really did was just sleep on the sofa behind me. Haha. But he was physically there. The best decision i've ever made was on 18 November 2006, when i agreed to be his girlfriend. Pictures taken after our AA202 board meeting! (Sorry for the sharp change in topic) Both pictures are actually very similar, or rather, they look identical unless you stare at them long enough to notice that some people did shift abit. Haha. But since 2 photos are taken, i shall not waste them.   |