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THE WRITER Koh Shi Li. Born on 6 Sept 1987. Virgo. Has 2 sisters, whom i'm in a love-hate relationship with. Met the most wonderful guy, who is also damn lucky to have met me, on 18 Nov 2006 and we have been working hard towards a beautiful future tgt since then. HER MAN Puah Yeow Chong  HER UPDATES TAGBOARD HER FRIENDS OTHERS HER MEMORIES August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 January 2012 February 2012 March 2012 April 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 August 2012 September 2012 October 2012 November 2012 December 2012 CREDIT |
Sunday, September 23, 2007 Darling and i went for the Singapore Soka Association concert today. I think the programme was overall quite nice, other then we felt abit left out when they were chanting. It's amazing how come of them can memorise the whole chant which lasted about 15 minutes. We left early to go to orchard. We took a cab down and when we just reached, my mother called to tell me that my father wants to bring us out for dinner tonight so i have to go home for dinner. I was really pissed because i've told her many days in advance that i'll not be going home for dinner on Sunday because i'll be going out and for this last minute notice, i have to go home when i've JUST reached orchard. Really really very unhappy. So darling had to put up with me when i'm throwing my tantrums. Poor him. He had to put up with me when he woke up earlier than me to give tuition, so he was very tired, and he would rather have some private time with me. Anyway, he had to pacify me and convince me that i have to go home for dinner because my parents wanted a family dinner, etc. Dinner was okay. As usual, my father ordered alot of food and this time, we couldn't finish the food. I can sense that darling felt quite left out during dinner. Nobody really talked to him and he didn't talk to anyone. Maybe he's just tired and he's afraid that his attempt to strike a conversation will backfire. I hope that my family members can try to talk to him understand him more. I'm sure they'll like him. Seeing that we wasted food, darling was quite appalled. After he left, he gave me a message which said: "Dear, it's real good to be brought up in a well-to-do family. The kind of dinner fare you had for weekends is something we'd not had for years... Ordering those food and not finishing them up is something we cannot afford. Haha. Maybe you can learn to appreciate what you all have, not to ask for more. Maybe your dad dotes too much on you all... Sorry for saying this. You can choose to listen or just simply ignore it. I'll message you when i reach home. Hope your family like the mooncakes." How can i simply ignore a message sent to me by him? I admit that i've displayed some acts of a spoilt child recently especially when i always request to travel by cab or asks my mother for the car. So, i told him that maybe this is why he think of me like this. And he reply was: "It's not just that. It's the kind of behaviour you all displayed. Do you know how many poor people there are out there? Probably not enough food? Never have a toy to play? Let along something like PSP? Maybe you're too blessed to consider the plight of others. I'm unsure how far you are from being classified as 'spoilt', and i don't know if i can maintain behaviour and standard of living in the future." Yes, maybe i do come from a family that is slightly better off. But me being too blessed to consider the plight of others? How many times have i stopped to buy a packet of tissue from old ladies? To donate money to the needy? I thought that he would have known me better. Maybe i do take private transportation for granted, but it's because i live in such an environment, which allows me to do so. It's doesn't mean that if i were not to have private transportation, i won't be able to get around. And how many times did i tell him that when i enter the workforce, i can no longer live off my parents like i am now. And does it matter if he cannot provide me with the lifestyle i'm having now? NO! Because by then, i won't be able to provide myself with such a lifestyle too. Why is it that no matter how many times i've assured him that i won't be expecting an equal lifestyle if we ever really marry one day, he still don't get it. I'm tired of having to do it over and over again and reading the messages that he sent me, i felt hurt and really really sad. After being together for 10 months, i thought that he would have known me well enough to not make those accusations. *sad* If he forever thinks so lowly of himself, comparing our family backgrounds, we'll not be able to last long. Just hope that he can understand one day that i'm not the materialistic person whom he thinks that i am. |